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so. it's pass mid-night. it's the time where i usually do all my deep thinking.
or over thinking.
sunday, my church showed a video called "march of the unqualified".
it kinda hit home.
as i was watching it. i thought to myself "that's me..and...oh...that's me"
the video was basically showing all the people that God used to do his work. and it was kinda funny how this video was telling you some of the flaws these people had. and when i say "some" i mean some. cause most of them...well...all of them had more than one flaw.
it just got to me for many reason. not only did i see my flaws up there, but i thought to myself of how many christians look down upon people w/ flaws. having forgotten that they are not perfect. they haven't nor will they ever be. Only one man was. and Hes not walking this earth anymore.
that they forgot that they shouldn't judge. that they should remove the log out of their own eye before they try to remove the speck out of someone else's eye.(LUKE 6:37-41)
and by all means. i'm not perfect. im not claiming to be. i do claim to be a christian though.
and that brings up the question, "what does it mean to be christian?"
well, i googled (God Bless Google) "christian", "meaning of christian"....and some other stuff. but. what's that going to do. well. it gave me the meanings that other people had or thought of. so. i'm going to tell you what i think it mean. to me.
being a christian is, to me, is being ok w/ not being perfect. i was born to this world a sinner, right? and weren't you? He died for my sins. but i have to believe that. so i don't die a sinner. He wants me to make a choice. I've made it.
but i'm not perfect. i'm not proclaiming to be. sorry to break it to you.
now here's the video. you don't have to watch it. but. you should.
so. the video named alot of people.
from moses to david to paul.
but i did see my own name as well.
Jonah ran from God. i've done my share of running. and i might do it down the road too. it's easy to try and hide things rather then face the problem.
Jacob was a liar. i kinda laughed when i saw that one. why? i don't know. cause, maybe, like typing, i have to think of what i want to type. same thing goes before you speak. you have to think. you have to process it and then it comes out. why do you lie before we even speak it?
Noah got drunk. HA! oh boy. this one should be fun. so. to start this one off, i'm going to answer the question that is going through your mind. yes. i've been drunk before. it was a long LONG time ago. i don't drink anymore. why? do i think drinking is a sin? no. people in the good ole days w/ Jesus drank. i think the state of drunkenness is a sin. it's @ the point where you don't remember things. or actions. or words that were spoken. that's just my thought on it.
David had an affair. the man that is known as "a man after Gods own heart" had an affair. but you know what the video didn't say. the man after Gods own heart killed a man. he saw a woman from his rooftop and wanted her. he sent for her. had sex. and to have her as his own, david sent her husband to war and made sure he was on the front line. David, the man after Gods own heart lusted, had an affair, and murdered. (did i mention moses was a murderer too?) im not going to have a story like this.
Jeremiah was depressed......ALOT! ah. the first emo kid to be mentioned! EVER! in the history of man! i thought it was funny. anyways, this dude is known as the weeping prophet. i've had my days of being down. i wear my emotions on my sleeve. can't help it sometimes.
John the Baptist was just plain poor. don't have to say much there. i don't have much money. i don't know if i ever will. it does make me appreciate the things i have though. someone once said that it will be hard for a rich man to inherit the kingdom of God. well. if He is saying that money is the root of all evil. by all means, give me enough to give right back to bills and gas prices. yes. you read right. gas prices!
Lazarus was dead. this one is my fav. dude was dead. if Jesus was a gangsta, this is the way it would of said it in the bible. "yo, lazarus. fool! i'm talking to you, homie. i need you to do something for me. hey! you listen chump?!?! get up! like for realz. don't make me come in there! i just got these new kicks and i don't want them to get all nasty in that tomb you call a crib. now get out. let's roll out man. i'm hungry!" Lazarus comes out of the tomb. Jesus says "dude. you look like trash man. i can't be seen w/ you like that. let's go. before i put you back." ha!
Paul had a short fuse....and so did peter......and moses and so do you...and you....you....yes...even you! we all have our buttons that people push sometimes. shoot! i even have a button. but you can have a case over it. or make it hard to find. i try my best though not to get angry. i've been slacking the past couple of weeks cause of my car situation. and work. but. things happen for a reason. so i'm just trusting. and believing.
well. that's it.
you see. these guys aren't perfect. far from it. they were humans. just like me and you. and that's what i think we forget. that we are flesh. and the flesh is weak. i'm not saying we have the right to do whatever we please. that's not what i'm saying.
all i'm saying. don't be quick to judge. remember that we have our own flaws. and all we can do is strive to be perfect. and ask for forgiveness. cause it's there. waiting for us.
and remember. forgive each other as well.
don't know why i am doing this. took too long. started around 1130. it's 330 now.
that's it for tonight. i hope that everything i said made sense. if not. sorry. and there isn't alot of mis-spelled words. if so. sorry again. take care and God Bless!
- Edwin Rivera III
the imperfect christian
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ps
i miss you grandma. hope heaven threw you a big party when you got there. i know that all your pain and sickness is gone now. might of even gotten a little younger ;) i love you. thanks for everything mama. for taking care of me since day one. and never leaving my side. tell grandpa hello for me.
or over thinking.
sunday, my church showed a video called "march of the unqualified".
it kinda hit home.
as i was watching it. i thought to myself "that's me..and...oh...that's me"
the video was basically showing all the people that God used to do his work. and it was kinda funny how this video was telling you some of the flaws these people had. and when i say "some" i mean some. cause most of them...well...all of them had more than one flaw.
it just got to me for many reason. not only did i see my flaws up there, but i thought to myself of how many christians look down upon people w/ flaws. having forgotten that they are not perfect. they haven't nor will they ever be. Only one man was. and Hes not walking this earth anymore.
that they forgot that they shouldn't judge. that they should remove the log out of their own eye before they try to remove the speck out of someone else's eye.(LUKE 6:37-41)
and by all means. i'm not perfect. im not claiming to be. i do claim to be a christian though.
and that brings up the question, "what does it mean to be christian?"
well, i googled (God Bless Google) "christian", "meaning of christian"....and some other stuff. but. what's that going to do. well. it gave me the meanings that other people had or thought of. so. i'm going to tell you what i think it mean. to me.
being a christian is, to me, is being ok w/ not being perfect. i was born to this world a sinner, right? and weren't you? He died for my sins. but i have to believe that. so i don't die a sinner. He wants me to make a choice. I've made it.
but i'm not perfect. i'm not proclaiming to be. sorry to break it to you.
now here's the video. you don't have to watch it. but. you should.
so. the video named alot of people.
from moses to david to paul.
but i did see my own name as well.
Jonah ran from God. i've done my share of running. and i might do it down the road too. it's easy to try and hide things rather then face the problem.
Jacob was a liar. i kinda laughed when i saw that one. why? i don't know. cause, maybe, like typing, i have to think of what i want to type. same thing goes before you speak. you have to think. you have to process it and then it comes out. why do you lie before we even speak it?
Noah got drunk. HA! oh boy. this one should be fun. so. to start this one off, i'm going to answer the question that is going through your mind. yes. i've been drunk before. it was a long LONG time ago. i don't drink anymore. why? do i think drinking is a sin? no. people in the good ole days w/ Jesus drank. i think the state of drunkenness is a sin. it's @ the point where you don't remember things. or actions. or words that were spoken. that's just my thought on it.
David had an affair. the man that is known as "a man after Gods own heart" had an affair. but you know what the video didn't say. the man after Gods own heart killed a man. he saw a woman from his rooftop and wanted her. he sent for her. had sex. and to have her as his own, david sent her husband to war and made sure he was on the front line. David, the man after Gods own heart lusted, had an affair, and murdered. (did i mention moses was a murderer too?) im not going to have a story like this.
Jeremiah was depressed......ALOT! ah. the first emo kid to be mentioned! EVER! in the history of man! i thought it was funny. anyways, this dude is known as the weeping prophet. i've had my days of being down. i wear my emotions on my sleeve. can't help it sometimes.
John the Baptist was just plain poor. don't have to say much there. i don't have much money. i don't know if i ever will. it does make me appreciate the things i have though. someone once said that it will be hard for a rich man to inherit the kingdom of God. well. if He is saying that money is the root of all evil. by all means, give me enough to give right back to bills and gas prices. yes. you read right. gas prices!
Lazarus was dead. this one is my fav. dude was dead. if Jesus was a gangsta, this is the way it would of said it in the bible. "yo, lazarus. fool! i'm talking to you, homie. i need you to do something for me. hey! you listen chump?!?! get up! like for realz. don't make me come in there! i just got these new kicks and i don't want them to get all nasty in that tomb you call a crib. now get out. let's roll out man. i'm hungry!" Lazarus comes out of the tomb. Jesus says "dude. you look like trash man. i can't be seen w/ you like that. let's go. before i put you back." ha!
Paul had a short fuse....and so did peter......and moses and so do you...and you....you....yes...even you! we all have our buttons that people push sometimes. shoot! i even have a button. but you can have a case over it. or make it hard to find. i try my best though not to get angry. i've been slacking the past couple of weeks cause of my car situation. and work. but. things happen for a reason. so i'm just trusting. and believing.
well. that's it.
you see. these guys aren't perfect. far from it. they were humans. just like me and you. and that's what i think we forget. that we are flesh. and the flesh is weak. i'm not saying we have the right to do whatever we please. that's not what i'm saying.
all i'm saying. don't be quick to judge. remember that we have our own flaws. and all we can do is strive to be perfect. and ask for forgiveness. cause it's there. waiting for us.
and remember. forgive each other as well.
don't know why i am doing this. took too long. started around 1130. it's 330 now.
that's it for tonight. i hope that everything i said made sense. if not. sorry. and there isn't alot of mis-spelled words. if so. sorry again. take care and God Bless!
- Edwin Rivera III
the imperfect christian
<><
ps
i miss you grandma. hope heaven threw you a big party when you got there. i know that all your pain and sickness is gone now. might of even gotten a little younger ;) i love you. thanks for everything mama. for taking care of me since day one. and never leaving my side. tell grandpa hello for me.
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