the days when we were younger

remember whenever we had to get up in the morning and not worry about bills?

or

whenever we woke up and didn't have to worry about what time you had to go to work?

or...here's a good one

remember all you had to worry about was looking cool in front of your friends?

i miss does days.

when all you had to do was impress that one girl that caught your eye?

what happened to those days? did we grow up too fast? or did we just grow up? funny how i miss those days. why? i have no idea. maybe it was easy back then. maybe we didn't have to worry about anything @ all. maybe i am just making this all up.

remember whenever we got our drivers licences? our first car? our first kiss?

well, i don't know where i am going w/ this....so...i think i'll just stop here

night everyone

oh...i just finished our inventory count @ our store. we don't have a small store. i don't want to count anything anymore.....well...maybe i am going to count sheep....if my brain allows it

later

edwin <><

1 sheep
2 sheep.....
3.....sheep.......
........4.....sh...eeeeeee......p
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

here we go...well...here " I " go

well....i don't know where to start....so I'll just "wing" it

I've done so much while being up here. I've created some awesome friendships. I've played w/ so many people and met so many musicians! I've recorded in amazing studios that will blow your mind away. I've done things that Belmont students don't do till junior or senior year! I've played for an anointed church! and I've seen Underoath!

I've have done so much since I have been up here. I have learned alot of things. Things that have helped me mature as a musician, son, and must importantly....friend. Alot of people here don't know how much they mean to me. Scott, CJ, Brian, Forrest, Kristin, Meagan, Britt, all the zjamers, all my friends @ work, the rowlands, my church, all my belmont friends. I am nothing w/out you guys. I wouldn't be the person I am now w/out you guys. I know that I am not a good friend sometimes, but hey, I''m not perfect! But I am glad that I've had the chance to meet and share some memorable times w/ you guys.

So...why am I talking like this? Well, I'm moving back to Lufkin, Tx on April 23rd.

I don't know why I am telling you know. I was planning on telling everyone a couple of weeks from now, but I've just been doing alot of thinking tonight. (yeah..one of those nights)

The reason I am moving back....well, it's family. Mostly for my mom....well, it's for her really! A man once said, "It goes..."God, Family, and Friends"...nothing else matters." It's hard though. Cause my friends are my family. I'm that person that loves to be w/ everyone. Loves to talk about nothing, everything, and the things in between! I'm afraid of losing them. I really am. I guess that's what's getting me tonight.

God never said that He was moving to Nashville, Tn to become a rock star. He never said that. He knows my hearts desire!
Psalm 37: 3-7
"Trust in the Lord, and do good. Then you will live safely in the land and prosper. Take delight in the Lord and He will give you your heart's desires. Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust Him, and He will help you. He will make your innocence radiate like the dawn, and the justice of your cause will shine like the noonday sun"
He has given me the chance to come up here and make music. I won't be that old man that says "I wish I could go back and @ least tried.". I will never say that. I'll never regret. Does this mean that I am going to stop playing drums? Drums are a part of me, like air is to my lungs! I'll never stop playing! NEVER

My hearts desire is now my family. I'm going home to help my mom feel comfortable to come home. To make her feel like she's raised a good son. One that shows her how much she means to me. I'm going to help her fix up the house. New rug. New dinning room set. New everything. She's taking care of me for 20 years....I think I can take 1 year of mine and take care of her.

I will be going back to school and starting all over. (crazy...i know) but, I'm more focused than I've ever been. I feel like I won't be staying in Lufkin too long. I feel like Nashville could be a home for me. I know that I want to transfer to MTSU or something. I feel like in a year and 1/2 i'll be back up here. We'll see where God does.

I'm afraid to lose some of you though. If feels like I owe you all so much. You guys helped in trying to make my dream come true. Helped w/ money, gas, food, a place to stay whenever the drive was too long, cheering me up whenever i was down, laughing till we cried, deep conversations.....the whole nine yards. I couldn't have asked for more! Makes me sad

Well, I don't know what to say now. So, I'll leave you this

"So hold your head up high and know
It's not the end of the road.
Walked down this beaten path before
You've packed your things and head home
At the end of the road,
you'll find what you've been longing for

I know cause my feet have the scars to show
I was lost w/ vague direction and no place to call home"
-Underoath

I'm coming home!

edwin <><