it's past midnight....so...have fun

tonight was one of those nights where i talked alot to some of my friends....and of course, it was past midnight.

i find myself very easy going and easly out spoken whenever it's past midnight....why? i don't know..my it's because I don't care anymore or maybe it's just...well, crazy stuff happenes after midnight....

we started talking about "past" things...like...for example:

high school, relationships, regrets, drama

and then we talked about "future" things...for example:

jobs, getting married, kids

well, overall....we talked about "Life"

We have alot of choices to make in our life. We've all made bad ones, and we've all made good ones. And I promise, we'll makes bad and good ones all the time.

But what are you going to do in those moments? Sit there and cry about it? You going to always rejoice in that one good thing you did? Some of us stay stuck on past victories and past regrets, sometimes so much that we don't look ahead or even turn around. We miss out on everything else life is made of.

"Go make a life....not a living" - Jason Mraz

I love that saying....cause it's true.

We get stuck in the american way of living. Big House, white fence, 2 1/2 kids (or whatever it is) and whatever else goes w/ that. We are all trying to be like everyone else. We are all trying to make as much money as possible. Have the fast cool cars. The expensive new trend. Don't get me wrong...I want all of that too. But I am not striving for that. You know what I told my friend tonight.......

I told her that I am built for two things (in no order)
1) be a drummer.
I will always play drums. If it's touring w/ a band, playing at churh, or just playing w/ local acts....I will, no matter what, always be a drummer!
i was told tonight that "you can't think edwin w/out drums....it's who you are!" i thought that was awesome!!!

2) be the best father/husband to my kids/wife
I've learned what it will take to be those two things. I know that I will try my hardest to be that.
i want enough out of life, so whenever my times comes to go...i will be happy w/ the life i have lived.

back to my point though.....

Some are different. Some help other people whenever they are in need. Some are selfness....and that is the kind of person i want to be as well. i want to be "that guy"......

sorry for the jibble jabble...but...like i said...it's past midnight

well, i am out. i have to drive to TN

i've had fun here in TX seeing some friends and hanging out w/ the family. and it was good seeing my brother, mikey, as well. He graduated from the Army Reserves....happy for him. i'll have pics up soon from the trip...

well, take care and God Bless

tell me what you think about this post...i never ask for that...but for this one...i would like to know....your call!

night
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Well, what you wanna hear gurl? Shake like an Earthquake?

well, tonight was awesome!!!! saw my friend, LoriE!!!! it was freaking awesome!!!! we just talked and sat in the good ole' wet grass....laughed about all the crazy stuff we use to do back in the day....

gave her the biggest "edwin hug"...well, kinda.....i didn't want to kill her.
but it was a good end to a long day....i thought about alot of stuff. i'm glad she called though....needed to chill and relax
can't wait to hang out more

anyways.....

i get to go home next week. going to texas for a day or two, but i am going to see my brother, mikey, graduate from the Army Reserves. i am proud of him....miss him too...well, miss my whole family...well, miss them and all my friends...and my dog. can't wait to see him. he goes crazy ever time i come home.....he's so big now that he knocks me down.

sorry for not commenting back to all of you....and for not emailing you back (susie) but, like i said, i promise to comment and email everyone whenever i get the internet.....

well, goodnight everyone...God Bless and take care!

thank you, God, for tonight.....it was awesome!