Wave of Sea

This week as been very trying on me. I've been full of doubts, sadness, and fear.

Ever since Sat. Night/Sun. Morning, I've been thinking about everything.

Me being called to a place where nothing is comfortable. A place where I know no one. A place where I feel like a alien. I try my best to make friends, but it's so hard. I have my best friends in Tx, I know each of their names. I saw them every week. I had my family by my side. I had the comfort of home. I had a new dog, Troy, that I miss sooo much!

I had a band that I played with every Sunday, with Kevin or Susie, Ryan, and Jon. I was playing with the NewSon band, and we were even working on making our cd.

But the one thing that kills me the most...and I don't know why I even care about this...but

I miss my dad.

I miss having a father figure. I cried on the phone with Shannon because we were talking about that subject. It just seems like I am missing a big part of my heart. I know that I am missing a big part of life because he isn't there. There are things that I want to ask, but I have to either talk to my friends, or I have to talk to myself. Question like "what do I do whenever my car starts doing this?" or "what would you do, dad?" or "how do you know if she is the one?" What happenes whenever I become a father? Who will I ask whenever I have question? Don't get me wrong Mom, you are the person that I will go to first, but it's the father part I will need help on.

Well....still have still half a week to go. Pray for me.

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"The Shadow proves the Sunshine."
-Switchfoot

"When darkness turns to light,it ends tonight."
-All American Rejects

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